Wednesday, September 5, 2012

It's Time For Change

Some of you know, some of you don't that lately, more than ever, I have been under a great deal of stress, filled with anxiety and negative thinking. It is something I have fought daily not to do because I do believe in the power of positive thinking. I believe in the power of prayer. I believe that if you believe and envision something for yourself that it WILL happen.

But even though I am more of a optimist than a pessimist, the pressures and strains of lack of money and time has been getting to me. To the point where I was getting depressed and thinking very non-Bunny.

I don't want to spend my life stressing about money. I don't want to spend my days filled with dread, worry, and frustration. My husband is currently working two full time jobs, seven days a week. I didn't know that by becoming a stay at home mother I would be alone so much. I didn't know that I wouldn't have him by my side everyday to help me raise my children. It is what it is for now, but I am tired of feeling sad and angry about our situation. And honestly, I am beyond exhausted with feeling frustrated.

In the past two years I have had some health issues come up (which I believe is due to stress) and with that and the realization that I don't want to live my life always wanting, needing, and frustrated, I have decided I am ready for change. I want my life to be filled with more joy, more gratitude, more confidence, more prosperity, more opportunities, and more peace.

I always tell myself, "how are things going to get better"? I say that because I see the situation just going around us in circles. Well, my husband and I have gotten to the point that we don't want to live our lives this way. I don't want us to constantly battle all the negatives but rather celebrate all the positives.

How are we going to do that? We have been talking more about it and we put ourselves on the same page. Call it faith, the power of positive thinking, or whatever but we want our lives to change and we want too enjoy all the amazing things life has to offer and not sit around hoping for things to change. We are simply going to write it all down. Corny huh?

We each made a goal to write down what we want for ourselves. We are so accustomed to be thinking of others that it is not going to be easy to do but it is all about changing the way we think and feel. So I call it a "Vision Board". I saw it once on Oprah (my how I miss that show), and I always wanted to do one. I may just grab some of my children's construction paper but I am going to write down all the things I want for myself. Because I want to live my life fully and not live it always feeling half empty.

What will that board do for me? It will help me keep focused on the positive, keep me grateful for what I do have, and help me to keep envisioning what I want for myself. I have always believed that what you put out into the world you get back in return. Many religions believe in that-some call it Karma. But whatever you want to call it, I basically want to create new dreams and goals for myself and make them happen.

Sounds simple I know but just like praying, thinking and focusing on your goals needs to be ingrained into your life and your way of thinking and feeling. I normally wouldn't share something as private as this on my blog but the reason I am is because all those things you want for myself-I want for you also.

So, I challenge you to make a "Vision Board" or a goal list for yourself. I challenge you to change your life and make your life better than it is today because that is what I want for myself. I'm ready to change my life and make it more fulfilling not for others but for myself.

I didn't know that I was going to write this post today, I had another post in mind, but I will share that with you all later this week. I felt I needed to share this-I needed to do this for me.

Now what does this have to do with my musing and adventures of being a vintage pinup mama? For me it has everything to do with it. Some of my biggest goals has to do with vintage and with writing and who doesn't want to be a better mama? I know I always strive to be the best I can and embrace my imperfections all the while learning from my mistakes.

On that note, I will leave you with a promise that once I finish my "Vision Board" or perhaps booklet, that I will share some of it with you. My hope is to continue to inspire myself all the while inspiring you as well to have the best life you can have.

Lots of hugs-Bunny xox


  1. Bunny, this is one of the most inspiring posts I've read in a long time.

    First, I knew you were facing some challenges, but I genuinely not know the extent to which things had gotten. I'm so sorry to hear you are struggling with some major obstacles in your life right now. Lots of hugs and lots of prayers coming to you from me!

    I love your idea of a vision board. I haven't been happy in my life for a while, at least since I got laid off. I feel like my life doesn't have focus on anymore. My career is burned. I'm not even enthusiastic about blogging anymore, because I feel like people don't really read it. :S

    I would like to make a vision board too. Even if it's just to write a vision list and take it from there. Sometimes it really does help to see the broader picture when you do stuff like that. I want to give it a try!

  2. Thank you for sharing Bunny. I'm sending positive thoughts your way - and I imagine the rest of your readers are too. I wish I could do more for you, but I only have Australian strings I can pull, and that won't help you in New York. Hey! Put a trip to Australia on your mood board! Around late August - coming into spring, the Rose Seidler 50s Fair is on... it would be perfect!

  3. Thank you very much for baring more of your soul, heart and inner mind with us, dear Bunny. I believe so very deeply in the power of positive thought, too, and like to think of myself as an optimistic realistic.

    My husband and I made some very serious decisions about our life last year, too, realizing that where we were was simply not the best option for us (for several reasons), and so - rather quickly (and expensively - but it was worth it) - we moved across the country to a much better house (and safer, more serene area), and surrounded ourselves with (my) family (for the first time in our relationship, as we'd always lived thousands of miles away from them).

    All of this change came about relatively quickly, and it some ways I think it still feels like we're settling in, but I cannot believe how much certain elements of our life has improved.

    I mention this in the hopes that it may help inspire you and your dear husband a little as you dream about and plan the life you want to live in the future. My life isn't perfect (whose is?!), but parts of it are better now than they ever have been in very long time (if not ever) - so much so that I almost worry something will come along and throw a wrench in the works. No time for such thoughts though, I'm too busy focusing on the positive these days.

    May all that you hope for - and so much more - be yours soon, dearest lady,
    ♥ Jessica

  4. Great idea! I did the same as Jessica, moved. I know we discussed moving and that is not an option, but it may have to come down to something extreme like that. Money is one of the number one stresses in life and marriage, I see how you budget, just keep up the good fight and things will start to look up soon. We are putting you and your family in our nightly prayers at dinner.

  5. Good luck with powering through your struggles and stresses to make things happen for yourself (and your family)! Is it possible to take on a part-time job to lessen the money stress a bit, or is that not feasible with kids' schedules and such? Regardless, I think writing things down and keeping your goals in mind is a good idea. And so great to be on the same page as your husband. Sometimes it can take years to be on the same page about life-changing events. I wanted to buy a house years before my spouse and I were both on the same page and then boom, last winter it happened and here we are, house owners 5 months in. Best wishes to you in sorting it all out. :)

  6. I like to think that my "Vision Board" is inside my head, but it might be helpful to me to make an actual, physical board that I can look at when life gets to be too much. Let's add this to my to-do list!
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  7. Bunny, you are such a beautiful soul! Thank you for sharing this with all of us! I myself feel much what you are feeling as well being a stay at home mom. I wish you blessings a 1,000 times over! May all your dreams come true!

  8. Thank you all for your support and kindness. I look fwd to sharing with you all my vision board and the journey that it will take me on!!! Much Love, Bunny

  9. Fabulous and very touching post, my dear. I am in that same boat with you! Do what you need to do for YOU. I am always here for you if you need me...I meant that babysitting thing I mentioned before, if you feel like it!

  10. Fabulous idea to put your ideas in visual goals. I shall send positive prayers your way!! Keep strong and believe. Good things WILL happen:))

  11. I believe that too Joanna! Thank you!!


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